Just a start...

Ok... I really don't know what to write. ("I don't know" is one of my oft-used phrases, by the way.) It's not that there's nothing on my mind. In fact, I am always so overloaded with thoughts that I keep getting lost in them. I think of a hundred things simultaneously and then become happy or depressed. So what do I write about???
Like I said in my intro, I have never been into blogs, I used to write a diary once in a while. But nowadays there is so much work that I have stopped doing that and sometimes trouble a lot of people with my non-stop musings. So I think it's better if I start posting here, at least I will remain normal and won't go crazy.
I am lonely.
But I guess I am not the only one who feels that. It's ironic that this same string of thought is experienced by so many people but still everyone feels alone.
Hmm... I didn't want such a pensive beginning to my blog but all my postings will be influenced by my current mood and I am sort of depressed now. Things are going a little crazy these days. Work is ok, but not great. Studies, I don't know... I miss home, have bad dreams and going through a tough time in my relationship. Long distance you see. More about that later. Just dealing with the little things in life has become such a nuisance. You have to fight so much, be assertive or the other person tries to walk on you. It's more difficult to deal with these grinning hyenas when by nature you are a docile rabbit. And of course, there are people who love to lend you a sympathetic ear and feel better about their lives by hearing your miseries.
I am sleepy. Watched a late-night show of Spiderman 3, quite good actually, a little senti at the end, but it was nice. I keep changing topics and write whatever comes to my mind. It's supposed to be my virtual scribbles after all. And now it's another day in office. Have to force myself to smile sometimes, don't want to have worry lines on my forehead, especially when there is no one to softly pat the crease away.
So, this is just a start, there's more to follow. Maybe I will be in a better mood then. And I feel quite happy that I have started writing here. Have to be ready to face the baddies now. But it's a strange world where anything can happen.
And beware when the rabbit roars.